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[05 Nov 2008|02:41pm]
just letting everyone know that I've moved. Please add gviruskisses
Never in the right

[02 Nov 2008|05:06am]
[ mood | bored ]

Oh man. Halloween should have been cooler, but I still had fun. If I had pictures, I would totally upload them. I went trick-or-treating with Megan, Kayleigh, Katie, Michael and my brother. Megan was a J-rocker, Kayleigh was a zombie, Katie was dressed in decora, Michael was ghetto superman and I was... like... a goth rocker chick. I got my brother to dress up as Birkin. :D After everyone left I stayed at Megans house for the night. We played Fatal frame 3 for like and hour. Then we spent the rest of the night playing DDRmax. We finally went to bed at 11:30 today... the sun was all up and stuff. We got up at 4:00pm and played some more until she went to her concert. I was going to go to, but I was all tired and bitchy... and I wasn't paying for the ticket so I didn't want to be a bitch. I came home, slept and then played some more DDR. I really need to get a pad. D:

Never in the right

[31 Oct 2008|03:59am]
[ mood | good ]

I don't think I actually have people who read my journal. D: But, I'll post this here anyway. Sorry Ken. lol

THE HOUSE
Deep in heart of Northern Russia, far from towns and off the beaten track, lies a quaint hospital by the name of Malaise. In the grand setting of the century-old building and grounds, Malaise House seeks to help its subjects by removing them from 'normal' society and providing them with a course of varied therapies. And with the room and facilities to happily cater for nearly two-hundred staff and patients, what need for the outside world is there?


Won't you be our patient today?
THE GAME
Malaise House is a multi-fandom RP; you can play as any character from any fandom you like. It's also an AU game, so we'd ask you create an appropriate character history. You can play as a patient or as staff, it's up to you!
| Malaise House | Apply | Taken Characters |
Never in the right

[15 Oct 2008|10:05am]
D:
Never in the right

[14 Mar 2007|10:53am]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vvws-0TtuCs

A music video of silent hill 4. Aparently it was on tv or something. The music doesn't fit, infact I kind of hate the song.... but I've never seen Henry move so much in my life... or act out so much emotion... he's like gay spazzing or something. lol

Heathers in it too... it like hints at them having a relationship or something. I don't understand. It makes my head hurt.

>>

-J
Never in the right

And so the unlucky girl updates [07 Mar 2007|11:36am]
[ mood | tired ]

Sorry it's been a while. I am feeling better, but I am still sick. It sucks. Sleep hasn't been coming to me easy either.

Friday, I stayed the night at Sylvers and we played rule of rose. Good but very complicated game. We're kind of stuck currently, so we started a new file on monday.

Saturday, I went to work then back over to sylvers and we played more rule of rose, then we drove to go see a roller derby and it was sold out by the time we got there. How sad. After that we came back up here, went to office max and then to some mexican resturant. After that Sylver and I played more rule of rose and then I went home. My grandmother came back from Kansas that day and yea. She's going to go back to kansas soon though.

Sunday, I went to work and then back over to sylvers to babysit Kyiah. She was really good until about 9:00. I almost killed that child. XD I stayed the night.

Monday, went shopping and hung out with Sylver. I got new clothes and a new purse and a Urahara to sit in my car.... and a dvd. Yupness.

Tuesday, I went to work...hung out with Jared.

Today, I have work.

-J

Never in the right

[14 Feb 2007|01:00pm]
[ mood | cold ]

I hate valentines day. Just thought I'd let everyone know that.

-falls over- I don't feel so good. ;-;

-J

2at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

Busy busy weekend. Yea... [12 Feb 2007|12:12pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

THursday my Grandmother left for Kansas. So that means that I had the house t myself all weekend (though I was barely home). HUng out with Jared that night and we played Super Smash brothers and I got my ass kiced several times by his pikachu. Fucking pokemon. I hate them. XD

Friday, Megan spent the night, and we bought groceries (Yay! I was excited!) and Legend of Zelda Twilight Princess. We spent the night playing that, though I passed out on the couch. Sorry Megan... I really didn't mean too.

Saturday, Megan and I went to James's then we went to Megans and picked up Chelsea and Akina (who reminded me of a certain chick in england only shorter). We saw the messangers, good movie. I liked it anyway. Lol, there was this fat kid who would like, practically jump out of his seat every time something mildly scary happened. The dad in that movie looked like Henry (from silent hill)...he was so hot. Then Chelsea and Megan stayed the night and I played sims for like... 2 minutes then I went to bed. (I'm good for passing out on people)

Sunday, I worked. Yay, work. Then I went to Garry's birthday party (which was my first surprise birthday party). I felt bad cause I forgot to get him something...and everyone else did. ;-; Though he said it was enough that I was there. We bowled and the first game was won by Sherie and I won the second game. Then we got to play these huge pod games and I got my ass beat, cause I kept running into people. It looked like I was ass raping them. lol. I was green and my name was zombiepunch (sorry... I failed to think of a better name Megan and I wanted a zombie name...lol). Garry was blue and he was Birthday boy, and Sherie was purple and she was golden goddess, and Dan was red and he was fuzzy pink bunny and Faith was green and she was called suga dumplin. Yea... I scored even bellow the slightly drunk Sherie. It was a great party though. I had a lot of fun. Then I went home and cleaned up... I was excited... my house is clean... and proceded to read fanfiction and then went to bed.

Today, I have the day off! YUS! My mother and my grandmother both called.... she's not coming home today... but they both wanted the number for grandma's air company... I wonder what's going on. I got to talk to Ruby for a second.... it was a confusing conversation... I couldn't understand her.

Well... yea... that is all I think.

Much love,
Jackie

Never in the right

[08 Feb 2007|09:36pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Megan... psst! Remember we have plans on friday. (I don't really want to be alone for another night... I freak)

Love ya lots!
-J

6at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

[07 Feb 2007|09:38pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

Retarded. Seriously. 1. Greatestjournal isn't working or something. 2. My mother is a wank. Seriously.

My brother ironically hurt his back. She asked me to take him to her work by 4:00. She also asked me if I'd pick up his homework if she called back. She never called back. Well, I got him to her work at 3:40 and apparently I'm late... not only that but she's pissed because I didn't pick up her homework. Wttf. I hate it when my parents become asses like this. Seriously.

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I have great descriptive posts don't I?

xxgviruskissesxx (9:36:14 PM): greatestjournal is being an assanine
xxgviruskissesxx (9:36:17 PM): -.-
saintlysociopath (9:36:29 PM): how so
xxgviruskissesxx (9:36:32 PM): it's taking for fucking ever to load
saintlysociopath (9:36:53 PM): and that is how you will die
xxgviruskissesxx (9:36:55 PM): damn
xxgviruskissesxx (9:37:02 PM): This is a slow death
xxgviruskissesxx (9:37:16 PM): too bad my death couldn't be hot and exotic
xxgviruskissesxx (9:37:26 PM): maybe I should just go to livejournal
xxgviruskissesxx (9:37:34 PM): it'd probably be better then waiting
xxgviruskissesxx (9:38:01 PM): omg, page cannot be displayed
xxgviruskissesxx (9:38:03 PM): wttf
saintlysociopath (9:38:34 PM): lol

2at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

Some news [05 Feb 2007|03:49pm]
[ mood | blank ]

So I finally got to go to the doctor for my back. I strained it really bad... so I have to go to short temr physical therapy. XDDD

The nurse who came in had a russian accent and I couldn't understand a word she was saying. It was like, "what"? At first images of old horror movies went through my head....and I was like...oh god.

Yea...people around me seem unhappy... and I wish I could do something.


My grandmother, Ruby, is practically on her death bed. I guess she's just given up and her whole leg has turned black. Her heart isn't pumping like it should. I'm a little sad... but she is 95.. so at least she's lived a good life. I hope she goes peacefully...and with a smile. My grandmother, Deloris, wants to go see her... I kind of want to go... b ut I have work. ;-; Ruby lives in Kansas and I live in Colorado... but it might be the last time I see her.

Anyway, much love.
-J

2at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

[04 Feb 2007|09:01pm]
[ mood | calm ]

That was not something I wanted to look back on. Apparently at one point in time, I didn't count as a person. I wonder how many people would still think that. Hmmm... oh well.

I've been thinking a lot lately. A lot of it has to do with therapy. I need to bring myself into a higher place and not put others before me so much. I just don't want to seem uncaring. We did this interesting project. It was a triangle and on top was the perpetrator, then the savior and the victim. I had to describe each one of them... and in all, they are all a bad thing we decided. I'd like to stay nuteral... always. But, I have homework. XD It's been so long since I could say that. lol Eventually I'll go to college...promise.

Been watching Bleach. I did end up getting hooked, like Megan said I would. lol I'm on epsidoe 83 or something.

-j

4at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

Make the pain stop -whines- [01 Feb 2007|04:49pm]
[ mood | in pain ]

First I hurt my back. Then my ear starts hurting with a most deffinate ear infection. Then my jaw stars hurtming, mostly in the back. Seriously. Painful.

I'm so sick of snow. So sick of it. It snows maybe once or twice a week. It's fucking stupid. It used to be my favorite thing and now it's like.... -cries- It's snowing again!

I slid... yay.

I'm ready to kill my ear though... over it all... the ear is the most annoying.

Had therapy today. yup. Fun stuff.

Much love,
J

7at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

Megan... for you since you can get to livejourn al from school. =) [30 Jan 2007|11:30am]
[ mood | bored ]

Never in the right

XDDD [10 Jan 2007|10:31pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I seriously think I'm flipping out of my mind. Maybe it's the meds. I hate being bipolar. I really really hate it. But maybe that's not all that's going on inside of this mental tug-a-war.

Let's say you have three roads, completely different and it applies to everything. (Pretend I make sense) Ok so in my case we'll take life in general. One road I can stay a loser wo lives with my grandmother for the rest of her poor red-headed life. The other road I can just go get a better job and the third I can get an education. Well, I have the problem solved, I am going to school, starting in the fall and I think I want to teach little kids. (Just because I'm a redhead doesn't mean I'm not patient enough.) But then again there is so many things I want to do, just within school that it's like I'm going around in circles and then I'm back at the beginning wondering what the fuck happened and where I'm going to go. (And sound like an idiot, again) So then I decide on an art associates degree. Simple enough....hopefully. XDD

So anyone who has read this from the beginning (my journal period) should know my love life complexes. I jump back and forth like a lost puppy. It's annoying really, never knowing what you want or not being sure if someone likes you that way. What's really annoying is the triangles or the octagons where everyone gets fucked over. She loves him, but he loves this other chick who happens to be a lesbian who likes this other chick who is dating another chick but that chick loves some dude. Yea...complicated. The soap opera of my life. (someday I might write it out as a book... filled with emo-ness j/k)

Well, I'm back in that cycle. I have three roads and all are long distance. I have the childhood friend in england and the childhood friend in pennsylvania. My friend in england is my first love and I will never lose feelings there. The other is a friends ex... which is the worst love interest possible. He wasn't interested in me until his current girlfriend cheated on him in the army with got knows how many people.

Here's the complicated one, the octagon. Ok, so this girl, for some reason is known all over the internet or something. Anyway, she has four love interests, myself included (I think). She gets pissed the fuck off at me because she hears some story about me cheating on her. If we were dating then yes, that would be a problem. But guess what, we're not dating! Not! You're too fucking busy being lovey with other people and don't take the time to even notice me. I'm sorry I'm like plain or something. I say I love you, you either say nothing or say "Yay, I'm loved." It's like, yay, just dig the knife deeper please. You call other people but you wont call me. Then you have the guts to say that I never showed or returned your love. Where was the love you showed me? No where. You showed me sympathy.... but you never showed me love. I tried dammnit...and I'm so fucking done with this shit. You have played me for a fool like most have. (If only I was strong enough to really say these things sometimes)

I've stopped IMing you, you never have Imed me and then you go and complain to people. Jared asked me if I was mad at you and I said no. We'll I guess I'm not mad, I'm not pissed off, just hurt. Another person has broken me on the inside. How many times in my life do I have to do this?

Yea so on a funnier not, my tie and socks have apparently been murdered.
PurplexHarlequin (10:48:39 PM): haha you ahve to be alucard))
PurplexHarlequin (10:48:46 PM): or ortega, you can pick))
xxgviruskissesxx (10:48:40 PM): crap)
PurplexHarlequin (10:49:11 PM): harhar))PurplexHarlequin
(10:49:17 PM): your tie is also dead))
xxgviruskissesxx (10:49:15 PM): NUUU not my tie! -wails-))
PurplexHarlequin (10:49:48 PM): lol aaaand!! your socks as well))
xxgviruskissesxx (10:49:40 PM): you ho))

Yea, so that was a long post... o.O I haven't made a post this long in a long time. lol

much love,
J

2at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

Mysterious Play [07 Jan 2006|06:55pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

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Never in the right

=) [15 Mar 2005|08:33pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Official Survivor
Congratulations! You scored 64%!
Whether through ferocity or quickness, you made it out. You made the right choice most of the time, but you probably screwed up somewhere. Nobody's perfect, at least you're alive.




My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:


You scored higher than 75% on survivalpoints
Link: The Zombie Scenario Survivor Test written by ci8db4uok on Ok Cupid
1at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

[11 Mar 2005|10:25am]
[ mood | productive ]

Repined MoonCollapse )

1at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

[29 Jan 2005|01:36pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I can't be friends... I can't do it... so I bid you... goodbye...and hope you have a good life.

3at the heart of every fault | Never in the right

[10 Jan 2005|05:05pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

I really hate my life sometimes. I really do. -sits in a corner crying- Why do I love her so much? Why?

I want to please her... and I wish I had a weak heart sometimes...and let everything pass over me... but I can't... and I don't. I fuck things up. I always do.

I shouldn't have let it get to me. We weren't even really fighting. I just...didn't want to talk about something that she knows nothing about. -sobs harder-

oh well... guess I should just fucking die then huh? I'm just some fat chick waiting to die anyway.

Never in the right

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